she would lean in. her face showing the most sympathy any face ever has. she would either say, "what are the tears for. what are you thinking about thats making you emotional." or, more likely, she would just sit with me. not take her eyes off me for one second. let me experience the pain. and she would watch intently. she'd wait for me to speak. if i didn't, she would say something. i'm not sure what kind of statement she would make right then because i've never cried infront of her before, although i wish i could. i have this feeling though when i'm with her thats numb. i feel the sadness, but i'm overwhelmed by being with her because i love her presence. plus when theres silence she sits and stares at me until i speak. all i can think about is the force of her eyes on me so i can't just cry on the spot. its weird.