One other thing to consider too: I am an INTJ for those of you who are familiar with Meyers Briggs personality types.

INTJs are notorious for being direct and to the point with their tones with people as well as not having their emotions influence their decisions, instead preferring to use logic and reason for everything.

So between my personality type and the fact that I have a diminished capacity for empathy due to my past makes it a constant struggle for me to not give into my "dark side" considering that I could easily do some pretty horrible things and not feel bad for it.

Another words, I know I'm wrong and I'm working on it.