I am with you. I wish I had time to start a website devoted to these issues. I suspect I feel this way as well because of a harsh childhood. But only in that when most kids were being protected from jerks, I was exposed to them early. So when everyone else got used to these things at 40 or 50 and had already made friends, I saw them in my 20s. Now I am an expert in seeing them.

- seeing the desperate bordem in other's faces when I talk.
- seeing and remembering how when they spew about some silly thing, I listen, only to start talking about me and they jump up and leave.
- I see how people try to suck up to superiors to get breaks and special treatment.
- seeing how people just use me... as if they are mercenary, with zero intent of ever returning the favor.

Since early this year I have decided to go it alone by choice. I come here sometimes when I need a little human chat but mostly I am training myself NOT to knee jerk looking to others for anything. When I have a thought that I want to talk with someone about I realize... they won't listen anyway. So I write it in a journal or I just think about it in my head. Sometimes I pretend I am talking to a trusted friend in my head and they love what I had to say. I know that sounds sad but what is more sad, playing this game with yourself OR talking to another person who isn't listening and could care less.