I know exactly how you feel... I'm struggling with this feeling right now.

"I had gotten used to having someone who often spent time with me and didn't feel as lonely, but now I'm going deep into that lonely feeling again."

"I got spoiled with having a husband who liked spending time with me for a while, now my mind is like a temperamental child at the thought of going out alone. It doesn't want to go back to it, but I need to. I need to enjoy being alone."

I relate so much to these feelings right now. While mine are stemming from a changing friendship and not a marriage, I completely understand.

I was fine being alone before. But now, I've found that I can't be alone - I don't know how to cope. The things I used to do to past the time I still do... but now I'm constantly thinking about wanting to be texting my friend. But she's too busy anymore to really spend time with me.. so I spend most of my time after work with my phone clasped tightly in my hand just waiting desperately for even just one text to save me...

I wish I had any advice for you, but I'm just coming to terms with the fact that I need help for these emotions as well.