Emily - I respect your decision to go it alone. I'm an introvert and a loner who has suffered many traumas at the hands of other people. People view me as pleasant and friendly but I don't trust easily. I just wanted you to know there are good people out there (I call them diamonds in the rough). They may just be hard to find.
I care. You're not alone. Whenever you feel in need of human contact please feel free to pm me. Best wishes.