Breezy Day: how long have you been married? I got married at 20 and was married for 20 years. You can be in a relationship and be very lonely indeed. Is your therapist helping you with these issues? I believe that despite your childhood, you can have meaningful healing that allows you to connect with others in a satisfying way.
I don't have any advice. I like being alone. I force myself to be sociable and have made friends who I am very grateful for but it's hard. I'm here if you need to talk. You're not alone.