Thank you for the support. Looking for a new job of course gives me anxiety because if I left I would disappoint my boss who I also consider a friend and that would just destroy my mind. But I am working on a new venture out of desperation in hopes to leave my job and work for myself which I would feel less guilty about because I feel my boss would be happy for me pursuing my dreams. It's just going to be a long way in the making and I need a solution for my poor spinning mind in the meantime. I've never spoken to a therapist and it kind of scares me but I think it may be a good idea for me.