You know I have been posting on this board for a while now and I just ran across this thread. I am so glad that I did because I think it really helps to explain a lot in my last relationship.

Let me begin by first saying that I have a "bucket load" of issues my self that I bring to a relationship. I have a history of depression and as a result have not been the best partner. And, when I was in a depressive melt down I would push my partner away at times. But, I always, always loved her and was working on getting through my depression. At any rate I am rambling here and I will get to the point.

My now ex girl friend was always very concerned whether she was adequate for me sexually. As a result I think that she was never really totally open to me and was always holding something back. She would constantly remark on how she wished she had larger breasts, that she somehow felt that was a prerequisite to being wanted and having great sex. Her breasts were small, but they had a great shape and I always told her better to be small as you age. Her breast size was never an issue with me. But even after dating for two years she would make comments about how she wished she had more, or comparing herself to her friends that were well endowed. All I wanted was for her to be open to me, I could of cared less what her cup size was and I told her that repeatedly. And, similar to other posts on here she would make comments about women I would see on TV or out in public. Oh my, I wanted her to just let it go.

Most recently she accused me of posting on an adult site. IT was a similar screen name I guess, I never really took the time to check it out. But the whole notion of it is just crazy.

She is an attractive and very desirable woman and I love her to death. I know I did things to erode her trust so I own a large part of the problem. But, she has similar issues to those expressed on here. I can only pray that we both work out our demons and come back together once again.