Little Cat, thanks for the help. Have a bowl of fresh milk on me. Ha!

Anyway, the reason I decided it's time to pursue other means of support, is because I got tired of being jerked off by everybody. The most recent helper I had just wasn't competent at all. Most of these care professions are rather clueless. They are not all like that, mind you. It is not nice to generalize and say all caregivers suck at their jobs, because there are some care professionals that indeed do truly help people. But there are obviously important boundaries on top of it. No matter how nice support workers are, they are just that - support workers. They never stick around forever either, which can make one feel like their association with them is ultimately gonna become so meaningless. It is also sad, but when they leave their jobs, they kind of act like they never even knew me, and some try to act high and mighty about addressing one's problems, when autism is really just an indifference. But that is "neurotypical" humans for you, always overlooking us because some of us are labelled as autistic. Because they are normal and you're the so-called vulnerable one, they are supposed to be better than you. Yeah, right. Einstein could not tie his shoe laces, but despite the setbacks he faced, he was a genius.

Then you get people like Sara and Joanna who pretend to care about your drivel, because there is a pay check involved. As soon as I showed I was interested in them, they acted like that is somehow immoral, and even proceeded to lie to me, get me arrested, send me to jail many times, and have my life turned upside down. And that is sad, because I actually liked these people and thought they had my back once. But I realized all too late what a fool I was for trusting these two cows.

The world we live in sadly lacks really compassionate people. They are out there, but it's like trying to separate the chaff from the wheat.