I've talked to her one time... I cried.... But I told her whatsup, I said I quit taking the saphris because I thought it was making me act weird.... And asked her if she could please talked to the doctor about me getting back on my old anxiety medication....Klonopins... Told her that I can't wait on his disability... Something's gotta happen now... I need an income and need to be able to take care of myself...
I told her I need a job but in vedy scared and my anxiety is really high...

She said she was going to talk to the doc... And was goin to call me back... I been just sitting outside rocking back and forth waiting.... I am shaking so bad...
This stuff, my life, has to change... Im not giving up or letting it take over again... Im just feeling very sick....
And im afraid, what if I fail...

I feel so alone.. none of my family understand... I have no friends to understand... So in all alone...
But I have to persist...

Though I walk through he valley of death... I shall fear no evil... These shadows can't control me any more... Im taking his life over....