I hate being sober... I try so hard.. but I go through these changes... I talk to myself.... And im like a good friend to myself you know, I protect myself and want the best for me... But I just... I don't know why I have to do this... If I can talk to myself and be in those states why can't this hurt part just die and let the knowledgeable confident parts that seem to know all the answers just do all the work... It's not right... Amanda said if it was d.i.d. then it would be like that so obviously I don't have d.i.d.... I just want to get rid of all of these bad parts.... I want that street part to take over, but it's only here when im dealing with drugs or ppl at parties..

Im crying 😢😢