Dear MC,
Sorry for the text. I don't know why I'm in so much pain right now. Maybe because, especially in those few minutes we spent talking before H could get there, when you were joking about the juice, it felt like how the connection used to be? And now it's gone for another week? But please call if you can. I don't even know what to say to you. There's just this part of me going "I need to talk to him." And that hopes I'll figure it out when you're on the phone (I think it's been since like Jan. since we talked on the phone, btw).

Of course, H and D will be home if you call tonight...and H might be home if you call tomorrow...but I can always retreat to another room.

I'm so sorry for being so ****ing needy...I really don't know what's wrong with me. If this is what working through transference is, maybe I should just stop and leave it be...

(Entirely too much) Love,
LT