yeah, its all just smacking me in the face

and this way that my life has been for 27 years is not ok...
i want different, i want happy, i want more, i want MINE.
this is my life.. im going to be selfish... im going to be self centered now... its time for me... i must think about me.... its no more about others, its not a fairy tale... its not a movie... its not a video game...

this is sucky *** real life...

i just wanna survive and have an enjoyable life

its scary though, why is it scary?