haha number one, the people who don't care won't even be reading this so no worries on that. yes you answered my questions, lol. i'm glad she allows you to keep in touch, and she does want to! trust me, a therapist wouldn't say those things if they didn't mean it. and since she kinda took out the therapeutic boundaries, maybe she's even willing to be friends??? you're not a bother to her, really. turn that part of your brain off. yes, be happy you had her in the way you did, and cherish that, but also look for a new and different relationship with her and accept that for the present. hope things work out