I just reread his email. It was for this week only. He said "maybe we should look at next week too". Why is he torturing me like this? I don't understand why he'd want to do this.

Maybe people here can learn from me-

Don't ever make yourself completely vulnerable to a therapist. I let down all my defenses with him, revealed all the insides. I spill my heart out in sessions-all emotion. Told him all of my feelings for him, all the very young attachment feelings, longings, and sexual feelings. All my parts came out, they thought it was safe, then had to go back in. It was a very foolish thing to do.

I can't believe i did this. Now I'm weak and drowning and desperate and needy and clingy and emotional and fragile and vulnerable and angry and hurt. Really hurt.