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Old May 15, 2017, 08:03 PM
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Originally Posted by Skies View Post
I just reread his email. It was for this week only. He said "maybe we should look at next week too". Why is he torturing me like this? I don't understand why he'd want to do this.

Maybe people here can learn from me-

Don't ever make yourself completely vulnerable to a therapist. I let down all my defenses with him, revealed all the insides. I spill my heart out in sessions-all emotion. Told him all of my feelings for him, all the very young attachment feelings, longings, and sexual feelings. All my parts came out, they thought it was safe, then had to go back in. It was a very foolish thing to do.

I can't believe i did this. Now I'm weak and drowning and desperate and needy and clingy and emotional and fragile and vulnerable and angry and hurt. Really hurt.
Ugh, I'm sorry Skies. Therapists are basically holding us in the palms of their hands when we share so much with them (I've done an awful lot of sharing, too.) I wonder if there's any way you can repair this with him? I have to wonder how much of it is a counter-transference reaction. Not necessarily romantic, but paternal, or maybe you remind him of someone he knows, something like that?
Thanks for this!
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