((((((((((tryin))))))))))

I'm sorry you feel this way. Like the others suggested, try talking with your t again. If your insurance has run out, I am sure he will be able to think of some way of helping you, especially since you originally saw him for 20 months, is that right?

Yes, it is SI. There are various distractions posted around on the Net, this is from The Student Center :
<ul type="square"> Stay in a public place
Be with safe and supportive people
Call a friend
Write in a journal
Watch a funny movie
Go for a drive
Do relaxation exercises
Do deep breathing
Listen to music
Read a good book
Go for a walk
Clean a closet, a dresser, the kitchen
Take a bubble bath
Go shopping
Wear a rubber band around one wrist and when the urge to harm is
strong, snap it lightly
Hold ice in your hand (sounds strange, but it works)
With a washable red marker, make marks where you want to hurt
yourself. This sometimes helps, especially if you like to see the blood.
Most importantly, get rid of anything you could hurt yourself with[/list]
Hope some of these suggestions work for you.

~ Silver.