But it DID happen to me...and, it sounds like, you... and I want to learn to deal with it in a positive way. Not entirely sure yet what that entails...working on it in therapy. Consider that it is better to work on it and learn what it means to you, how to get rid of the demons, than have constant flashbacks and low self esteem, abusing substances, among other things. Are you in therapy and opening up, Breadfish? It's hard...I've been in therapy for eight months now and it isn't getting any easier. But I have hope.