I'm still very, very hurt that you gave my session away.

It's still really affecting me. Now you are going to say I "did it to myself" and use that as an example of how I am 'hurting myself' or being a victim. I was actually trying to empower myself by taking a break and thought it would work. Don't have much experience with feeling empowered anymore, maybe i just forgot how to do it in a way that works and was too spontaneous. But now that little glimmer of taking my power back from this depression, the little glimmer has dimmed and burnt out again.

Why couldn't you have warned me and told me someone else wanted my slot? We talk every week and you could have emailed or texted me anytime. I would have quit that treatment sooner and was already thinking of quitting.

Why couldn't you even say you were sorry? That's the part that hurts the most. Like you did it to be mean because I took that 2 day break. It's not like I even had a pattern of doing that--i've never even taken a 'break' before. I don't even go on vacations, you know I don't have that luxury.

My needs never matter. Why does that person's needs matter more than mine? I can even pay someone to consider my needs. Maybe if I could pay more I would matter. I have so little and what I did have you gave away. I don't think I can even meet this week in trying to work around your schedule that's available for non-prime people.

I've been really ill too, can't think of a worse time to not have a therapy anymore. It no longer exists.