Hello there

When we get used to a certain way of being, it is uncomfortable to change, even for the positive. It is a well known condition that being not depressed after living depressed for a long time, one may feel like they are out of their "comfort zone". We are creatures of habit and sometimes it seems we spend our lives struggling with depression or other MI, or other conditions, that if we get better it seems like something is missing. It is nothing to be worried about, but one has to fill that void now. This is when you make a plan to do things your MI kept you from. And taking meds to get better does not magically change your life. Meds typically work slowly, correcting imbalances in the brain, and when you get to a certain point, you are able to make life changes for the better. Some people are able to take meds for a time then don't need them any more, others have to take them for the rest of their life.

I very much doubt that bettering yourself and your life will hurt others. With recovery comes better reasoning ability, so hopefully if you get to this point you will use sound judgement.