I want to talk about some of the things my mom said to me when I was a kid. Like, how I'm not a nice person, I don't care about my family, and how they didn't raise me to act the way that I did when I was a teenager. I know she was just taking out her own "stuff" on me but I think there was still a part of me that internalized it and still believes it. Just one more reason I feel like there is something wrong with me.

I was tempted to email this to you and still might...otherwise, I know it will come up if we do EMDR on Friday so maybe I'll just wait until then.