Please don't forget that depression alters your views.

Depression came rather late to me...about 6 years ago. I have a clear recollection of what happiness and normal was. So I can compare.

My thoughts now are wrong. I have a distorted view of life. I tried therapy. It did nothing for me. I take an antidepressant. It does not "fix" me, but it gives me small windows of "normal" during which I make small changes that WILL have some long term effects on my mental health (hopefully).

The other thing is that, with depression, you can't really wait until you hit rock bottom, because that will be too late for you. What you have to do is act while you still have the will. Don't wait. Waiting can be fatal just like any other illness.

We get what it's like....