Mood disorders generally respond to medication, and personality disorders rarely respond to therapy in the long term. Your personality disorder will always be something you will have to compensate for. Some personality disorders are worse than others.

I don't know why you won't take medication, but because you have made that statement at the outset, don't look for anyone to take you seriously about wanting to change things in your life.

In reading some other posts of yours I see you have been diagnosed with BPD. That is one of the most resistant to any therapy I know of, so you will have to work very hard to compensate.