Hi everyone,

Wow. I'm amazed at how many people have responded. Thank you so, so much. In my impatience, I sent that email exactly as is last night at 3:00am before my post was approved. Today is now Day 7 of not being at work.

I have yet to get a response from my boss which is probably a very bad sign. This also isn't the first time I've committed career suicide. I somehow manage to eventually get back to where I was before, but never any healthier. I always chase prestige and a job title over investing in my health and well-being and the cycle just repeats itself. I guess that's why I'm not so utterly devastated this time because I've become so used to blowing my own life up. My life is completely one dimensional in that my purpose is derived from a job. My relationships with my siblings is non-existent, but I am lucky enough to have incredibly supportive parents.

I honestly don't know what's going to happen next, and I'm terrified to even show my face at work. I obviously have to at some point. I know I'm in this weird zone of depression and hypo mania.

I know none of you even know me, but thank you seriously for even making the effort to type out a few words in response to me. You're all kinder than you probably give yourselves credit for.