You know it has gotten really bad with support services now, when you have to resort to paying for your own assistant. It really is ridiculous that social services cannot just match you up with somebody who will behave in a competent manner, who will also enjoy the time with their clients based on what their interests are, and appear like they want to be doing this job. Half the people I had over the years did not seem to fully care what I wanted to do with my shifts. It was like I lead the way and they were a sheep who just listened to me because it was killing time for us. But despite that, it was always a case of nobody wanting to shell out money to actually do anything, though. It was like they were just tagging along, lending their ears to people, and then maintaining a distance when it came to actually doing anything support-wise. They would be as well to have not been there at all. Why have a "support" aide who does not even bother supporting you?

It is sad that the care profession never puts the compatibility side of things before anything else, but care packages concerning social activities is not exactly the same thing as caring for say, an elderly person in his or her home, which is why I think they get confused and just use the label of a 'support worker' as an umbrella term for everything. It seems the term 'care worker' refers to all aspects of support, when it is hard to say why they label it all as one thing. Anyway, I am even confusing myself here going on about it.

For example, if you had a support worker who liked carting, they could do it with the person instead of just standing around doing nothing. I know they are always reluctant to pay for to do things when it comes to taken cash out of their wages. They claim they are not allowed, but I really don't know if they just say things like that sometimes because they would rather not pay a penny, as there are often strict rules for everybody no matter where you get the help from. It is like if you offer them a piece of toast, they are not allowed to say yes as that is technically taken a person's food.

There is no point in having a support person who just stands around doing nothing but complaining about the weather, or the climate. An example of this was when I went to Edinburgh Castle with that guy from Morocco, for to shoot a short film. He stood around doing nothing. They needed extras just to stand there for one small scene, but he never wanted to be filmed, so I had to stand there by myself with my hands in my pockets while he disappeared. The support worker was doing the same bloody thing as me anyway, and there was no other extras there because nobody else turned up. There was just one other actor and an actress, besides the crew. Surely it would not have hurt him to join in. The scene lasted like 10 seconds. This is why I got rid of him. He just could not get on board with anything.

What bugs me is that these support people get the same amount of money for sitting on their butts, doing nothing but playing with their phones, and they don't take what you say very seriously. They display a, 'Whatever! We're here now, but I'm really here just to watch you, and get my earnings that way' sort of attitude. If social services can only afford to pay for 6 hours as well, and even if you agree to pay for to gain more hours (if that is even allowed), will they actually do their damn jobs?