I'm sorry you're feeling this way ((hugs!)))
If it makes you feel better though, my best friend, and person I connect the most with on an emotional level, and who I am in the MOST contact with out of all my friends - she lives 8 hours away in a different province. Sometimes, distance doesn't affect friendship. When you connect on such a level that you're kindred friends, distance isn't such a huge thing. I actually see this friend more than some people who live close to me (we see each other at least once a month).