These past few days, particularly today, I am missing my mother. Some of you already know that she died when I was very young, when I was 6 months old. So I never actually knew her all that well, and I don't remember her. I don't even know if she wanted a child, or a girl. I don't know if we had much contact either, since we were both ill. I was premature. Is motherly love different to fatherly love? In any case, I want some right now.

There is also the fact that I never knew my grandfathers either. My dad's father died when my dad was a boy, and my mother's dad died before I was born, in a work accident or something similar to that. So I did have my grandmas...my mother's mother died when I was about 14, and my dad's mother died either last year or the year before. So now I have no grandmothers or grandfathers.

I guess the whole point of this post is to say I am feeling a little lonely. If it even makes any sense.