I have a very hard time admitting what a mess I am, especially to T3. It has mostly to do with her being a woman and my issues around my mom. But yeah. I often go in with something I want to address, and sometimes it is not the messiest. It's sort of like I decide what I can stand being honest about. I often push myself to be more honest and transparent. But even with that, yes. I do sometimes not want to say that I am a mess.