I haven't spoken with him yet today, he is calling at some point. I will ask the questions that I have, I at this point with everything that is going on, feel that not much more could make me feel worse. The only thing I am nervous about with the whole thing, is what if one of them says something that puts me in that panic mode, or sends me back in time physically and mentally. My defenses stayed up for so long with my T, I never wanted to show him how I really was, I have lost the ability to fake it!!! I don't want to go there in a room full of people I don't know.....