I find that the urge is already there before I start drinking, but am probably more likely to act on it than if I stayed sober. I'm not really in a position where I am actually trying to quit so if I get the urge to cut sometimes I drink just to make sure I do...

Yeah I probably need to stop drinking to get in control of this..I don't know if you do too. It depends if you can control the urge and not act on it when you have been drinking..