Hi guys.
I’ve been feeling very down for about the past year and I feel like I have nowhere to turn. As I am quite an extroverted person with a seemingly great life, I’m scared people won’t take me seriously if I talk to them about it, especially my friends. I’m also worried people will think I’m attention-seeking. I suffered with anxiety a couple of years ago and actually ended up seeing a therapist and found that when I talked to people about it they had a hard time understanding or just said something like “everyone has ups and downs”. Also, I live very far away from my family at the moment and I would not want to scare them especially with me being so far away. I also don’t want them to be upset or think it’s their fault.
I’ve been having some suicidal thoughts which are scary and unsettling as they happen many times a week. I often feel tired, run down and just absolutely lifeless. Recently I haven’t felt very comfortable with leaving my bed (I’m a full time student, so do not work), which actually often makes me feel worse as I haven’t done anything with my day.
I guess I just really wanted to reach out to someone as I’ve truly been feeling dreadful. Any advice or words of support, I’d be so grateful for.
Thanks guys.