I relate very much to "if it happened once, it can happen again". What I don't understand is how the delusions can mostly go away and I see things as others see them, and then I can be taken down by such a similar delusion. If feels like I'd be immune since I recovered from the last bit I don't think I ever do fully recover. The delusions are always there even when I get better, they are just much smaller and less all encompassing. I don't want to be as out there as I was a few weeks ago ever again. Everything was a sign, everything was instructing me and giving me messages and it felt so bizarre and surreal.

I hope we both can cling to reality for ever and ever cash. (((Hugs)))