Yes I have my T and a trauma T and also the psychiatrist that prescribes my meds. I am nervous, but I also am not naive to think that my T doesn't already confer with his colleagues about my case as they all probably do anyway, now it will be a face to the case so to speak.

I talked with T, this is how it works, I go in, I had a choice of sitting in the room with them all or sitting in a room with just my T and the other therapists in another room with a two way mirror between us, I agreed to do this, but would rather have them in the room with me, as uncomfortable as it may be at first, knowing that there are 6 other T's on the other side of the mirror watching just makes me freak......I would rather see them and their faces.......not sure if that makes sense, but it feels to wierd to think of not seeing them and knowing they are listening.........anyway my T will be asking the questions, we both agreed that I do not want to have to re-tell my story, so my T will write up a outline to give to them before hand, so he askes questions, we take a break and then we resume where the other T's will ask me questions, give me input, give my T input, so on.......now if I do not want them to ask me anything I can chose that also, that we are going to discuss more next week, after my T has done his outline and showed it to me.

I am scared, and my T does a great job, but sexual abuse survivors is not his field, so I know he has already consulted two of his colleagues about me, so he feels if I am working so hard at getting better he should also work as hard, and if it means more resources for him or me, then that is what he is hoping for.

Good point on the questions, I think I will do that. I figure this though, he isn't going to ask anything we haven't already gone over in sessions, right!! So most of the stuff from him will be things already out on the table so to speak. He told me it is done in a very gentle way, that none of the other T's are there to make me feel on the spot or questioning, and he would not allow any of them to say something that would hurt me, and I told him that I always have the option of walking out also!!!!!!!!!!!! he agreed!!! But said it isnt going to go there, he would stop it first..........so I am going to do this, under the right circumstances........knowing the questions and so on........it can only help me........and I need it right now.........nothing else is working at the moment......