Tryin, it looks like you have been having very strong overwhelming feelings since you ended therapy. Maybe you need to call him/her and continue the relationship. Sounds like someone in there is really scared and/or angry. I am sorry this is happening. Please everone who is reading this don't be offended or think I am lame. Trying, Don't start a habit like smoking if you know it's addictive. S.I is a very addictive drug and you don't want it believe me. It deminishes self confidence and fills us with shame. You can call you t just because you are having all kinds of feelings and need contact. It's okay.