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Originally Posted by sophiesmom
Maybe we feel that we should be punished just for existing?
Being here, on this planet, takes up space. We breathe air that (logically) another should have. We use resources that someone else is more deserving of.
I think, for me, that the only way I can prove myself worthy of being here is by (maybe and hopefully) having a positive impact, in any capacity, on another human being. Or, on the very bad days, just keep to myself so that I don't disturb the outside world.
How many of you suffer greatly if you think you said the "wrong" thing, or did the "wrong" thing. How many of you prefer to disappear into the background out of a fear of making a mistake?
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Oh my god, this so much. I have horrible amounts of existential guilt, but also too much narcissism to actually do much about it.
I very often fantasize about "justifying my existence" by being great in some way, being the best, except I'm too lazy and too untalented to actually achieve it. Oh, and the thought of publicly screwing up or starting from the absolute bottom disgusts me so much it's easier to just not try.