whats hypervigilance from ptsd? i didnt even know i had ptsd until i took that sanity test. and then i sat down and thought about it....

i was with him over 2 years ago. and it started to get better after a year or so. i used to be terrified to be in my own apartment because he had found me at 2 other places after i left and ive changed my cell phone number 4 times now. well then all of a sudden he got my cell phone number. my friend left his phone out in the car, and my ex went through his phone and got mine and my friends number and started calling me again. he also called my friend at 2 a.m. asking if i had been talking about him. i got my phone number changed and he hasnt found it out yet, but ever since then i started having nightmares again. i felt like maybe living 400 miles away and changing my phone number would help. but he still found me. 3 states away and he still found me. and if he is crazy enough to track me down after more than 2 years then who says hes not crazy enough to drive 6 hours down here?

so it was like i finally started to heal and not be scared, and then he found me again. and now i feel terrified and depressed again. i mean, he tried to kill me. he had his friends threaten to blow up my car. i would have to bum rides home from work and leave my car in the parking lot so he couldnt follow me home and find my apt. i guess im just scared that he isnt going to give up. i mean he has 2 kids and has a girlfriend/baby mama whatever you want to call her. why wont he leave me alone?!