Sounds like you have a good husband there ElsaMars. It is good to have a safe person to talk with. I have had different experiences with different councilors and doctors as far as trust goes. I guess you just have to get a feel for them first and go from there. Maybe your husband could give you some advice or possible go with you.
I met this guy online about 12 years ago who turned out to be really a good councilor for me. He didn't have a degree in psychology but had did a lot reading and research. He wrote a book that I came across and his theory really rang true to me when I looked back at some of the content of my psychotic episodes. I found his website and emailed him and we got to be pretty good online friends. He passed away about a year and a half ago unfortunately. My therapy now consist of mainly reading books. I guess there is a term for it called Bibliotherapy.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bibliotherapy

I don't mean to offend anyone, but I heard kind of a humorous saying a while back;

The difference between a madman and a mystic is the mystic knows who not to tell.