I dislike it so much that even last night when I should have driven straight there I didn't. They have an intake coordinator 24/7 and I could have just driven up and checked myself in. The hospital is about 3 miles from my house and is strictly behavioral health. It's very nice and the times I went I got much better.
Having said that....I still dislike it so much that I avoid it at all costs so I truly understand how you feel. You've been having a really tough time lately though and if that's what it takes to get some relief, maybe it's a good thing. I hope you start feeling better soon. Best wishes....