Thanks for all the hugs. There isn't anyone except my T who understands what I'm going through. My friends don't see what the big deal is, so I don't confide in them anymore. One doesn't want me to even mention my therapy! I think I have one friend who gets it, sort of. That's why I'm so grateful for this forum, especially to those that get it.

The attachment problem is the main reason I'm in therapy so that's why it's most important to discuss, even when it involves or did involve, wanting to be in T's life! I told T yesterday that's why I was so upset when she got divorced. The child had her hopes set on being part of T's family. Irrational but the child is just a child.