I do that already Perna, I always have a paper clip on me during sessions so I can focus on it, my T says I talk more when my hands are busy doing something......I look at him, not all the time.............sometimes the stuff is to painful to look him in the eye and say.......then I stare at my paperclip and shape it and so on........

I know this session sounds scary.......it scares me, but at this point, my feelings of suicide and hoplessness are overwhelming me......the situation at home with my husband is just getting worse, and some where there has to be a way I can learn to deal with things.......