I think you know what will happen if you wait and see what happens. Your therapist will not contact you again, and life will go on for you much as it has been going.

I'm going to be the devil's advocate here. You said that "mentally, I'm not great." I think you should ask yourself if you're avoiding going to therapy because it would mean having to face problems in your life that you don't want to face and would rather just ignore. I am someone who spent a short time in therapy when I was younger and then decided I was "done." It was my decision to leave. Well, in retrospect, I can see that this was a big mistake for me. There were major issues in my life that would inevitably get explored more in therapy and I was scared and not ready to do that. Some could say that I went back to therapy and dealt with those issues when I *was* ready. And maybe that is so. Maybe I could not have done the work earlier. But dang, I wish back then someone had asked me to consider what I was doing more deeply, because if I had stayed with my therapist and faced these issues head-on, I could have avoided a lot of heartbreak.

I don't know you, or your situation, but I just wanted to be the one to say that sometimes a step back from therapy is *not* healthy. At least that's my opinion, based on my experience. I don't know you or what's right for you--maybe your therapist just doesn't click with you, maybe you don't need therapy right now, maybe you need therapy but just are not up to it, or a million other things. You might think on this some more. I wish you the very best no matter what you decide to do.