You are going through a lot of stressful things right now. I'm sorry you are having such a tough time. I think a therapist would be a great idea. Also how about seeing a pdoc to see if medication would help? I don't think killing yourself is the answer...I think getting help and taking baby steps toward the life you want to live. Social skills can be learned. There is so something called exposure therapy that is helpful. Hold on...you are valuable and worth it. You are not alone. There are a lot of people on this board who will support you. Best wishes....