I can, with no hesitation, say I hate myself.
Low self esteem prevents me from doing so many things. I can't get a job, make friends, or go to places/events I want to go to. I don't think I can ever progress. And I can't even find any drive to help myself.
I have health issues, family issues, I'm overweight, I'm ugly, I have no friends. I can't see anything going for me.
My "mood" changes constantly- from being confident and ready to take on anything, to thinking about suicide, and feeling emotionally numb- or it's not even a real feeling and I'm just shutting my emotions on purpose?
How can I feel all these things and go to college this fall? I'll probably just drop out and waste my parents' money. Not like I know what I wanna do with my life. Ugh. I'm so tired and frustrated with myself that I don't want to be here.