Ha i dont deal with it very well and cant explain my point of view to people because they care more about other people then what im trying to communicate and i keep seeking help and everone feels im safe where im at but its going trigger me and i will be in ip again or prison because i killed them or injured really bad by someone. and my issue is family wont let me do what i want and want me to take care of they needs,its not my responsibility to help 55+ people to doctors but my mother trys to be controlling and make me feel bad or threatens stuff. I cant focus on myself and needs when others want to put themselves before me,how do i handle this situation and do what i want to do? not to mention my sister boyfriend called me weak. sooner or later I'm going get to the point where i explode again.