Hey AnxiousGirl, I'm glad you're continuing to think on this one and that you are planning to go back.

In your original post, you said you didn't want to go and "I don't know how or why this happened." When it came to responding to your therapist, you said, "For some reason I just don't want to email back."

I would just urge you to consider that phrases like "I don't know" and "for some reason" are warning signs that we're avoiding thinking about something. Once I realized that, it really helped me start to articulate what some of my issues and fears were.

In my first therapy experience, when I was younger, I would often, often say "I don't know" when asked how I felt or why I was doing the things I was doing.

Now, in those kinds of situations, when I feel the urge to say "I don't know," I stop myself. I ask myself, "If I DID know, what would the answer be?"

I feel like before, I was walking through my life almost like a zombie, controlled by all kinds of issues that I just ignored and denied. Now I feel a lot better, almost more alert to what is going on in my own head and my life. And that makes it a lot easier to make changes I want to make. It's taken a lot of work. I have a good therapist. I hope yours is good and that you'll go back and learn some useful things about yourself.