T,

In a way, I'm glad you agree with me. That my parents look happy and like they really care and love me on those pictures. In another way I feel even more guilty now. It's unfair to them that I feel the way I do. It's unfair to anyone who experienced bad things.

I wish I could tell you. Could have told you.

I feel dizzy now. I only had one drink, but then, I haven't eaten all day. BF is on vacation. I'm alone. Alone and empty. I probably won't be able to cope without SH today. Sorry