You write, "what if I just never go back? I mean I'm not really over the issues that I need to face but it feels good not going (if that made sense)."

The answer to that seems pretty simple. Your therapist will probably just let it go. You'll continue to struggle with your issues, just as you have been. You'll have the "good" feeling of not going...but continue to have the bad feeling of the issues that have got you down.

Therapy can be pretty uncomfortable at times, if we're trying to change entrenched patterns of thought and behavior. It takes work that can be unpleasant and even scary. It can be an investment, though, to do the work in the short-term if it is going to pay off in big ways in the long term.

It's your life, and only you can know how you feel and what's best for you. But if you say you're going to go in a few weeks, and do not, then you've made a choice and it would be good to have straight, in your own mind, your reasons for what you're doing.