Dear T,

So, there was a lot in that email and I don't expect you to have answers or to reply to all of it. It just felt right to send it. I emailed Old T too, for some advice. She is very experienced and I hope that she has come across this before, that she has some words of wisdom.

This is really starting to become an issue for me because I actually want to talk to you. I didn't really have that desire before, so I guess I thought maybe that played a part in it, but I do now. For the first time in my life I actually want to talk to someone and yet I still can't. That's annoying.

Anyway. Thank you T, for caring, for being patient and consistent and for generally being you.