I think it's great that you emailed her- if only so that if you choose to return, you still have space available.

I just wanted to say, though, that you shouldn't feel any pressure to return if it doesn't feel right for now. Therapy is a choice, and it's not always right for everyone. Sometimes it's just not the right time in your life to deal with certain issues.

No one is perfect. We all, whether in therapy or not, struggle with issues. That's life!

When I was 17, I entered a particular therapy program. I quit, because it wasn't the right timing for a variety of reasons. I chose to go back three years later, when the symptoms and issues were to a point where I really felt I needed and wanted help. Since then, I've done therapy on and off when it made sense for me. When it didn't fit for my life- busy with life changes, or whatever, I took breaks. Some breaks were a year or two, others shorter. Even with the same therapist! Sometimes you just have to decide what you are ready for.

You've posted a lot in the past about feeling ambivalent to the process. I just wanted to let you know that it's ok! You don't have to do therapy right now if it's not working for you. It's not a right or wrong choice that you have to make. It's just what works for you in this moment. The choice you make today about doing therapy or not isn't a permanent thing. It's all about what works for you today. Enjoy your break, fill your life up with what fits for you now. You don't have to decide today when to go back- you will know if/when you are ready when the time comes!