Don't worry, not feeling judged. And yeah, technically, you're right, that if I'm not doing well I should contact her. It's more that I keep having periods of doing well, thinking I'm fine, then suddenly I'm not. So not like a continual state of crisis or in any danger. I have e-mailed T a couple times since our session Wed., too.

As for reaching out to MC, it was partly that he'd already agreed to talk, and there were a few things I wanted to clarify with him (that T couldn't help me with). Plus he just has a way of talking about things that tend to help me with times where I'm upset but not entirely clear why. He did call me a little bit ago, and we talked for about 20 minutes, which helped. Will type that up at some point (I actually took a few notes!)